Yup. I said it. I am a big old baby. I know what’s coming. Anxiety and Depression, as if I don’t already face that enough. Stress and a wave of emotions that have me up and down like someone who is genuinely Manic Depressive, which I am not typically. In short, a fucking roller coaster. I don’t want to deal with it. I also know … Continue reading I Am Afraid To Quit Smoking and Fear Is A Bitch
I am so tired. Tomorrow morning at 10:15 PST I will be on CJSF FM Radio talking about Uncomfortable, and while I am excited, I am exhausted, because last night I was having dreams about myself and my future. I was thinking about all the things that I have to make sure I talk about, and suddenly I found myself asking “why are you doing … Continue reading I Want To Throw Myself Into Helping Others But I Have To Help Myself First
When I was twenty-three, I was having unprotected sex with my boyfriend, and I got pregnant. I also had a miscarriage. Or well, I had what I suspected was a miscarriage, my boyfriend at the time wouldn’t take me to emergency. Instead he wrapped his legs around my waist and refused to let me move until I feel asleep. When I woke up the next … Continue reading Look At Your Stomach…Are You Proud?
The healing process after sexual abuse is never ending. I always think there is going to be a special day when the memories stop affecting me, but that’s just not the reality. The trauma that affects my mental health can be debilitating. If I am being completely honest, I have spent most of the last few days in bed, mostly sober, just crying and feeling … Continue reading It’s Not Over…
Dear Wannabe Oprah, someone in my life is full of shit and I am not sure how to get it through their heads that it’s okay to let it be sometimes. That it doesn’t always have to be about them, that they don’t have to be the center of attention at all times. I am not sure what to say or how to say that … Continue reading Someone In My Life Is Full Of Shit…
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 