When I was working at the church, I didn't look like I had mental health issues. I had underlying mental health issues, that I wasn't dealing with. Which we all know came to a head when I got arrested for having a panic attack on an airplane. Recently someone made a snide comment about the … Continue reading Be Aware of The Disabilities You Don’t See, Please
I Am Afraid To Quit Smoking and Fear Is A Bitch
Yup. I said it. I am a big old baby. I know what's coming. Anxiety and Depression, as if I don't already face that enough. Stress and a wave of emotions that have me up and down like someone who is genuinely Manic Depressive, which I am not typically. In short, a fucking roller coaster. … Continue reading I Am Afraid To Quit Smoking and Fear Is A Bitch
I Want To Throw Myself Into Helping Others But I Have To Help Myself First
I am so tired. Tomorrow morning at 10:15 PST I will be on CJSF FM Radio talking about Uncomfortable, and while I am excited, I am exhausted, because last night I was having dreams about myself and my future. I was thinking about all the things that I have to make sure I talk about, … Continue reading I Want To Throw Myself Into Helping Others But I Have To Help Myself First
Look At Your Stomach…Are You Proud?
When I was twenty-three, I was having unprotected sex with my boyfriend, and I got pregnant. I also had a miscarriage. Or well, I had what I suspected was a miscarriage, my boyfriend at the time wouldn't take me to emergency. Instead he wrapped his legs around my waist and refused to let me move … Continue reading Look At Your Stomach…Are You Proud?
It’s Not Over…
The healing process after sexual abuse is never ending. I always think there is going to be a special day when the memories stop affecting me, but that's just not the reality. The trauma that affects my mental health can be debilitating. If I am being completely honest, I have spent most of the last … Continue reading It’s Not Over…