At some point in January, my mom told me about a new virus that was hitting the planet, and making people incredibly sick.
On a morning in February, she told me that several people around the world had died.
By March it was declared a full blown global pandemic, and my entire world changed.
I had planned for 2020 to be the year of growth for Loud Mouth Brown Girl, I had planned to write a bunch of love letters to finish off my 1000 love letter goal and hand every single letter out at the various Pride events that I had expected to attend at the beginning of this year.
By March 2020, I realized that Pride 2020 was cancelled and my love letters would not in fact be needed this year.
This was a huge blow to my self confidence, because being the Loud Mouth Brown Girl, as a character, has already become a huge part of my identity.
When the lock down was declared, I figured I would be okay because I was used to being alone anyway, but as the days dragged on, I started to become less and less confident that I was going to be okay.
I knew that I needed to do something, to find something, to occupy my hours that was more than just designing clothing, I needed more than the writing. I needed to connect with other people.
So I joined a few Cannabis groups, and I started the podcast as a way to talk about Cannabis use and mental health, specifically. Starting the podcast led me to finding my Budsista’s and helped me rediscover that I still had lots to say.
It helped me find my voice again, and while I am doing it as a hobby right now, I do hope to make it into a career as the podcast evolves.
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