Loud Mouth Brown Girl

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I genuinely owe the inspiration to another writer named Kern Carter, a phenomenal writer and teacher from Toronto Canada.

I decided because I couldn’t write, to put myself on vacation. If I call it a vacation it’s not a writer’s slump.

Then Kern wrote a beautiful piece called “I Can’t Write,” and sent it to me via email with all his other subscribers. It was precisely what I needed to hear.

I was in a clusterfuck situation you see. For months I was houseless, and so it makes perfect sense that once I was settled in my new home, I would struggle to find my center again.

It took a minute, but I remembered that it’s about creating new patterns, and so my whole focus can’t be working 24 hours a day anymore. I know I’ve said that before but I mean it this time.

I need to take breaks from Loud Mouth Brown Girl dot com or I’ll drown in content that I am giving away for free when what I need to be doing is building a future for myself.

To that end, I have recently joined Substack, which is a great platform. It has notes, and chats with your favorite writers, and you can send newsletters, the possibilities are actually quite endless.

So each week I will be writing an essay about love, how to find it, where to find it, what it looks like, and what’s new about falling in love in your 40s. Largely because Kern Carter challenged me to write, and here I am, writing again.

Kern writes a lot about love, and about how important it is to the writing process.

Lots is going on in my life, lots of big, scary changes, like losing my medical team as I transfer to another district, like losing the only people who’ve been with me for six full years. It’s big and scary. Knowing people in the building don’t know my story is scary too, so focusing on love is helping me to center myself and keep calm.

Right now with everything going on in my life, calm is not the best that I can just hope for, it’s the medicine I need, to heal so that I can rise up the way I want to rise up.

It’s not enough for me to just be famous or to be the kind of writer who changes minds. I want to be the kind of writer who inspires minds that want something more, that believe there can be something more out there.

There are millions of little brown girls, who like me were raped, and raped by cults and gangsters, who don’t talk about it because they don’t know how. When I talk about finding love, they are who I mean.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall

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