Loud Mouth Brown Girl

I had a doctor ask me this and now I am starting to wonder.

Trauma and ADHD look a lot a like.

They are both mental health issues in me, that look identical. I am distracted a lot of the time, I disassociate, I start a project and then abandon it to start another.

A lot of what I am going through is trauma, but if a Doctor can’t differentiate between trauma and ADHD, how do I know that if I take ADHD pills, it will help with what I am dealing with?

The absolute truth is that I won’t know until I try, which means trying to find another doctor I can talk to about trauma and PTSD, while also finding yet another doctor to discuss my ADHD symptoms with.

The search is on, but I am fully aware this is going to be a long journey. I say this because not all doctors have mental health training and so even though they think they know what mental health looks like, the reality is they have no idea.

Every one of us has a responsibility to decide what we’re going to do about our mental health. For some folks, it’s checking out with working out, or drinking, drugs, or sex.

For other people, it’s meditation and healing in ways that are “not new” to the Western eye but definitely capitalized on by the Western world.

For me it’s definitely meditation, and focusing on my healing by doing things that make me happy.

One of the things I am most excited about is getting back to the gym, now that I have a goal to work towards, I know that I am going to achieve that goal because I rarely if ever, give up on myself.

I also know there are going to be a lot of hard days ahead of me, but I am fully aware that if I put my mind to it, I can do it. All I need from you is to occasionally take the time to remind me that I can do this, that I can get better and be a productive member of society that also continues to fight for what I believe in.

Just remind me every now and then universe that I got this…that I can serve my community again, and heal from what my community did to me.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall