Loud Mouth Brown Girl

Sit your family, friends, fans, and allies down, and tell them who you are. Before it’s too late.

So many people struggle with mental health issues alone because they are afraid of being and I can’t quote this enough as a “burden.” We are not burdens.

The whole purpose of humanity is to show the ancient ones to do it better, differently, and in a way that doesn’t destroy everything around us.

We are supposed to take care of each other, we are supposed to lean on each other, and we’re all – as individuals – supposed to feel like we matter to this planet.

Although the trip to Winnipeg was awful, it was also enlightening, I learned that there are folks like me out there in the world, who are teaching, building, and loving, even though they are struggling with their own shit.

But they’re still doing the God damned thing because they know if they don’t no one else will. You have opportunities in front of you, and maybe you don’t like all your options, but you don’t have to love them all. You just have to love the options that are going to get you where you want to go, even though it’s a pain in the ass to get it done.

That’s more than adulting, or just being mature. It’s about learning to balance what you need to do, with what you want to do so that even if you aren’t where you want to be, you feel like you’re heading toward where you want to be.

For the last eight years, I have just gone along to get along, choosing on purpose not to be overly worried about where I ended up. Still, now I have a very specific goal that I want to accomplish before the end of the year, and I know that I won’t be able to do it, without some kind of communal support.

I’m not ready to ask yet, but I am choosing to trust that when I do, my community will pull up for me, the way I would pull up for them.

It’s not an easy thing to do – to trust. In anything, anyone, or any experience or whatever, but I’m trying because I know that if I don’t, I’ll get too afraid of the world to try anything at all and I’ve been there before.

It’s a great place for me to release my creativity, but it’s not so great for my physical, mental, and spiritual well being.

So moving forward I am choosing me, and all the things, people, and places, that are going to lift me to the places I want to go.

I hope you’ll join me.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall Hall, The Original Loud Mouth Brown Girl