Yes.
You are allowed to have happiness after trauma, you are allowed to have all the good things after chaos, and even though you’ve been conditioned that this fact is a lie, it’s really not.
Gaslighters have taught you that you deserve your position in this world, that you can’t work or fight for more or better because they don’t want to fight for more or better, or because they already have more and better and they don’t want to share.
That’s okay you’re allowed to build your own Devon.
-The Universe
I spent so long in darkness, and every day this week I’ve laughed. Out loud, more than once, I’ve also coughed a lot because I am smoking more weed, which means going outside more and spending time with friends that I’ve just started to get to know.
The world that I left behind feels terrible and scary and dark but it honestly does feel like it’s “in my past.” Like I’m ready to close that door.
But, that doesn’t mean that that door is ready to be closed. One day at some point I am going to have to respond to the fall out of how my story came out and what I did to survive. I’ve seen too many warriors have to face off with their demons not to know that my turn is coming.
The only question that I have to ask myself – and that you should be asking yourselves – is are you ready?
Are you ready to face off with your demons and ghouls?
Are you prepared to face the past and to enrich your life by weaving away from what was so you can dance into what can be?
If not, you better get ready.
There’s a retrograde happening and we all know what that means.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 