So as afraid of the future as I am, I am coming to the conclusion that the reason I am here is to do more than just keep a record of my mental health. I always wanted to build a community around mental health so that I could talk to other women, and other women can talk to me, about what we’re going through.
Now that I am in such a healthy and healing place, now that I have the freedom to spread my arms, even though I’m not yet dancing about my life again, one of the things I am thinking about introducing into my daily and weekly routine is physical exercise.
I have always enjoyed physical activity, especially walking. But with everything that went down last year, I lost my comfort in going for walks because I started to become more and more paranoid, due to genuinely believing that I had a stalker.
Now I’m in a safer place, and I can take walks but I find that I am stuck on my corner. If my friends are going for a walk I’ll go with them, but I struggle to go on my own. Part of it is fear of the unknown, and being in the neighborhood as a woman of color by myself, but part of it is laziness.
So I am working on an event that I hope will kick my ass into gear and get me focused on healing, in a way that is both healthy and creative.
I’m excited about introducing physical activity into the layers of my mental health journey, especially because it just makes sense. You can work on the emotional stuff until the cows come home but if you sit in the same place and refuse to move or grow, you become stagnant and moldy.
I don’t know if physical activity makes sense for you, but if it does I hope that this event that I am planning will be something you want to participate in.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 