Loud Mouth Brown Girl

Spring Fling is all about celebrating the new year, and enjoying the fresh flowers that “spring up”, during the new season. As the dark gray clouds make way for bright blue skies and giant balls of orange, yellow, and red, light, we start dressing differently.

We start taking our fashion and our experiences more seriously, it’s time to “Work to party,” we gear up for the festival season, specifically for some of us, the Pride season.

This year marks seven years of being The loud mouth brown girl, even before this blog started, I was fighting against decades of abuse without even realizing it, and when I finally came forward, as we all know, I only did so because I was so completely terrified I was going to be murdered.

In very real ways I believe I saved my life. Whether the outside world does or does not, is irrelevant, I know that I protected myself in the only way I knew how, and now I am in a much better place.

I have in very real ways, grown up on the internet. It taught me everything about the person I want to be when I finally do decide to “Grow up.”

I know I am not there yet, but I also know I will be one day, so I soak up as much of the lessons of the day as I can. Even if the lesson is to let my body, brain, and soul, rest.

Some days I clean, and other days I take care of myself, but every day I am alive, matters for all the girls who aren’t here to tell the stories about what happens to girls in Canada.

I can’t speak for them, but I can share my story and hope that it resonates with enough people that I make a difference in someone else’s life. The number of people I affect is irrelevant to me.

I already know that I am, and have, helped folks better understand what it means to live with mental health issues after PTSD due to sexual abuse and trauma.

I am excited about my future for the first time in a very long time. Largely because I don’t have a book project looming.

Instead, I am going to be putting on “Survivor’s Connection” the live edition, in person.

I’m going to bring together, men, women, and non-binary people, to learn together, how to fight back when you are being attacked.

We’re going to learn Ju-Jitsu!!!! Are you fucking kidding me? I’ve wanted to do Martial Arts my entire life and I am finally finna do it, and I get to do it with all my supporters. I absolutely cannot wait!!

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall