I don’t know and I won’t promise, that I am going to do this all the time, because I don’t always feel the need to get on camera. Sometimes I like just writing about how I’m feeling but today because I felt inspired by the fact that someone donated another $100 to the Fundraiser (THANK YOU ANONYMOUS PERSON YOU’RE AMAZING!!) I am encouraged.

This tells me that I am doing the right thing, in LMBG, and in asking for help, and I appreciate that, because I needed a sign to keep going, I hate to say that, but I really did, and the money coming in, really is a sign that I should keep going because now I have to put that money toward what I promised I would.

So because I wanted to do something different for an update for all of you, I made a thirty-minute video just talking about the story. I need to get comfortable saying it out loud, and I need to get comfortable telling the truth about what happened, in a way that isn’t totally uncomfortable for folks listening.

I want people to know my truth, but I also want people to understand that I respect that what I say might cause them harm, and so learning to do this by video is super helpful, so thank you again anonymous donors because you really are helping me lift up my confidence.

I actually did this in one take, and while it’s not perfect, I am encouraged to know that I am going to be spending the money in the right places, so that I can continue making videos about mental health.

It’s one thing to read about it, but it’s another thing to see a person actually feel the words as they are sharing their story. It’s easier to connect to the truth of the weight of the trauma when you can see their face, hear their voice, and see the way their bodies move.

And so I made a video today, and it felt really good. I did my makeup today not intending to make a video, just because for the first time, I really felt like feeling a little prettier, can you see it on camera? Fuck no lol, but that’s okay, it’s not for YOU, I did it for myself.

So without further ado, here is today’s video vlog, and please listen to the end because I promise it gets really good, and don’t forget there are only 12 days left to enter the contest to win the laptop so hurry up and get those entries in.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall

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