Loud Mouth Brown Girl

Okay so here’s the thing. I’m pretty good at believing in myself even when other people don’t. I didn’t always see this as a superpower but only because it’s really difficult to believe in yourself when no one else does.

I have made some changes recently that I hope the committee of readers will agree with, but I’ve made these changes because I need to up my game. I might not have a place to live after next month.

Sure, I’ve finally gotten out of the hole, and I am finally making steps in a positive direction, but it’s taken me so long that yet again my housing is at risk. I am sure that everything will turn out okay but in case it doesn’t, I don’t want it said I didn’t try.

Many of you know that I have struggled to support myself selling shirts on Spring because they also allow white supremacists to showcase their work. So I moved my shop.

I am very excited to do this because this is a platform I respect, and I want to collaborate with other platforms that hold the same values as myself.

I also changed the funding on my Kofi page, because I want to earn an income from my writing but also because doing so is taking a leap. I have to market myself differently now because at this point there is a serious risk of absolute failure and I am just not ready to face that.

I have seen women accomplish great things while being unhoused, and with little to no option, but I genuinely fear that I will die on the streets without ever having a chance to make my dreams come true.

Make no mistake, I honestly never thought I would be here, but just as angry as I am, I am equally unsurprised. This is precisely where my abusers wanted me, vulnerable again.

The difference now is that I have all of you wonderful people cheering me on, and that has made all the difference.

I am scared of the future as always, and I am tired of being in panic mode all the time. So many of us who struggle with mental health issues also struggle with just trying to survive and it’s so unfair and cruel when it doesn’t have to be.

I know that many white women out there are manufacturing hate toward themselves to market their products but unfortunately I am one of those people that has to move with authenticity.

I don’t know how to market mental health issues as cute and adorable, and I don’t think I want to, because to me it’s life or death.

So all this being said, I wanted you to know what’s going on in the Loud Mouth Brown Girl movement world.

All my professional mental health work can be found on Kofi.

All my new designs will be in the NEW and IMPROVED Six Oh Four North.

Thank you so much for coming this far with me, I can’t wait to see where we go next.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall, The Original Loud Mouth Brown Girl