The Loud Mouth Brown Girl Handbook: How To Deal With The Fact That When The Cops Finally Start Listening, They Still Expect Me To Blame Innocent People For Gang Rape, and Child Sex Trafficking in Canada

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So several people have been trying to figure out where I, Devon J Hall stand on certain topics. Everything from my association with the Hells Angels which I proudly admit, to my inability to deal with bullshit is in question right now.

Recently a politician got a hold of me and asked for me to contact them, I’ve chosen not to because I’ve been ashamed of the fact that my former life, and my current life, are stuck trying to find a way to meld into something that actually resembles me doing something that is positive for the world.

How can someone – specifically a woman – who is connected to the Hells Angels work in Politics?

Well, what if I told you, that there are full-patched members, all over the entire globe – who are Hells Angels, who want to go legit? What if I told you that hundreds of them have started looking at their lives, and started thinking about what life would be like if they didn’t have to hide everything they are behind a patch? What if I told you they want to wear their cuts all the time, BUT that sometimes they are afraid to because they are ashamed of what people might think.

Would you believe me?

No. You would not. You would not believe me, because YOU have HEARD stories about the Hells Angels, right? Well, I’m here to tell you that the Hells Angels – as a Biker Organization – as a Club, are not as powerful as they think they are, and they sure are not as fuck as powerful as you think they are.

I know this because I’ve talked to many of them, from fucking were, and the trauma stories that I’ve heard from Hells Angels members are soul-shattering. I’m not talking about what they did, I’m talking about the things that were done to them.

As children, many of the Hells Angels members that you know – the famous ones who shoot at people, and beat on people, and do horrible things for a sense of power and money – were abused as children, in ways that no human should ever have to suffer.

Does that make their actions okay? No, but how on earth can we ever believe that the Hells Angels, the Banditos, the Crips, and the Bloods, could ever be good people when we constantly treat them like they don’t belong in our society?

If you want to be a part of my world you have to earn your place is a horrible way to be when lots of people spend their entire lives JUST trying to survive.

Mike Ross – son of a pedophile, a boy I love with all my heart, did not rape me. I’ve said this a million times, but the police don’t care. They don’t give a fuck, because when I reported that I was raped by people PRETENDING to be Hells Angels, they turned that shit around and said “why on earth would she say they didn’t rape her…” they assume it’s because I’m afraid of the Hells Angels.

I’m not.

I, Devon J Hall, have absolutely nothing to fear from a Hells Angels member or a Banditos, I have nothing to fear from any Gang member on the planet, and do you know why? Because they aren’t gangsters.

The worst gangsters on this planet are politicians, cops, lawyers, teachers, and doctors. I’ve been raped, abused, hypnotized, and tortured by all of the above. I’ve never been raped by a gangster. I’ve been raped by people who had power over marginalized and vulnerable communities, who pretended they were the good ones, when in reality, they were nothing but liars, fakes, and frauds.

When I went to the police to tell them what happened to me, handing in 6 journals about what happened to me, listing ALL of the names of men I knew, grew up with, loved, respected, and told the police that the men who raped me used those names against me to confuse me, to make me think my friends and loved ones raped me, they told me I was psychotic and had me admitted to a mental hospital.

Because it can’t be possible that a man could be a rapist and a liar right?

Have you ever been raped by a Hells Angel member Devon? No, you fucking idiot they wouldn’t dare touch me, they know better, and why is that? It’s not because of loyalty, it’s not because I’m powerful or connected, it’s because the Hells Angels don’t rape children and they don’t set women on fire.

HOWEVER, people pretending to be Hells Angels, on the other hand, can get away with all kinds of shit, because all you have to say anywhere in the world is “I’m a Hells Angel,” or “I’m connected to a Hells Angel,” and suddenly everyone bows down in fear.

So here’s a fun story.

When I was 23 I was at a house party when this young kid shows up he started going on about how his uncle is a Hells Angel, and of course we laugh it off, because most of us at that age wanted nothing to do with the Hells Angels, they were adults we were still kids, and the moment you say you’re connected to a gangster, you open a door that you can never close again.

So eventually I get tired of his shit, and I throw him on the balcony ground and tell him that if I EVER hear him tell me or anyone else who he’s connected to again, he better pick up a gun and kill me, cause I’ll kick his ass.

He laughs it off telling me how his uncle is going to pay me back for how I treated him, and I laugh and say “yeah good luck with that.”

A few weeks later I’m at another party and the Hells Angel shows up, three or four of them, and I watch as they start asking some of my friends for me, one of them walks over and asks me, “did you kick my nephew’s ass?” I said “Yup,” he asked why and I told him. “He was running his mouth and using your patch to protect him, I didn’t like it.” He nodded, we shared a beer, and he left.

That was the end of it.

Until several years later, that nephew grew up and raped me. Yeah, that happened, he thought he’d get away with it because his UNCLE is a Hells Angel. I can assure you, he didn’t get away with it.

It wasn’t because the cops did shit, and it wasn’t because the Hells Angels killed him, it’s because for the rest of his life, for the rest of his entire life, he has to remember he raped me, while pretending to be one of the many people I loved, and so did his friends.

The Surrey Police department has 6 notebooks, written by hand, detailing almost 20 years of abuse that was done to me, and in those books are the names of the victims who were called abusers, by the police who refuse, to this day, to believe that I wasn’t raped by genuine full patched Hells Angels.

Now, I won’t tell all the details because I REFUSE to contribute to child porn trauma stories, but what I WILL say is that the people who need to know what happened to us, know, and do you the worst part? They don’t fucking care, and do you know why?

Because they think I’m or was a gangster.

We – and I say this seriously – never wanted to be gangsters, we wanted to survive, and so we became what our abusers turned us into so that we could deal with the fact that we were living lives we never chose.

“Things were different back then.”

They were different for us too. We used to party in the park, drink until we couldn’t see straight, and when we needed help, it was the daughter of a friend of a friend, who called a mom, for help, and the taxi driver, refused to take our friend to a hospital. He didn’t die, but he could have, because the most supportive and kind community in the world, sent us a driver, who refused to take a drunk man to the hospital.

If we’re going to talk about how bad white supremacy is, or how bad the Hells Angels and other “gangs” are, we need to start thinking about the way that words work.

So here’s Loud Mouth Loud Mouth Brown Girl Lesson 1: The Perception of Power Is More Important To Too Many People, and Not Important Enough To Too Many People

The Hells Angels, the Banditos, the MS13, the Crips, The Bloods, name any “gang,” out there, and they will all tell you, they are done with being the douchbags of the world, because no matter what they do, no matter how many drugs they sell, no matter how many patches they have, no matter how many bullets they shoot, they are NOTHING in comparison to the people who pretend to be the good guy.

When I was about 16, I was hanging out at a place called Willy’s Pool Hall in North Delta, where I met a giant of a man named Larry Amero, one of the nicest kindest, CRAZIEST fuckers on the planet, and my friend Gino will tell you the exact same thing.

But in the press across British Columbia – thanks in large part due to Dennis Watson from the disgustingly full of bullshit, Gangsters Out Blog – will tell you that Larry Amero was a pedophile.

Interestingly if you talk to those who knew and loved Larry like myself, will tell you that there was only 1 person in the world who looked identical to Larry but was not Larry.

Now let me say this one more time: I AM NOT AFRAID OF A HELLS ANGEL, BUT I AM FUCKING TERRIFIED OF THIS PEICE OF SHIT – This man who pretended to be a man named Chris Zubcowski, who is the older brother of a school friend from Calgary Alberta, Canada. He worked with, and for Keith Rainier, BUT if you ask Dennis Watson, it was Larry Amero Senior who was out raping children.

I didn’t know this growing up, that people thought my friend Larry was a rapist, I knew it was this piece of shit in the image above, I didn’t know his name at the time though because he lied. So 20 years after me and several boys were raped in my bedroom I open the paper and see this fucking goof on the front page and realize…wait the fucking shit, that wasn’t Chris Zubcowski on top of me, it was Colby Palson and this fucking goof as well as a BUNCH of others, but here’s the problem.

Earon Wayne Giles was in prison for almost all of those twenty years after what happened to me, and the boys, and we didn’t know his name, and we couldn’t trust the police as kids, so we couldn’t say anything, and when I went to the RCMP to tell them that this was the man that raped me as a child, they thought I was crazy.

They said the same thing when Josh Harms got shot and I told him that he got shot because he raped me – I didn’t ask for it, and the person they have in prison is not the person that did it, but they don’t care, and the reason that they don’t care, is because crooked cops – which I CANNOT verify – made fucking sure that ALL the victims who were raped by  Earon Wayne Giles, Keith Rainier, and others – the men who PRETENDED to be from Montreal (and if you know, you know what that means,) raped a bunch of kids, and who did they blame?

Well, if you talk to any of the victims – most of which who are too petrified to speak out – you’ll hear that, it was the Hells Angels who did it.

If you talk to a Hells Angels member they’ll look the victim in the eye and know immidiately that we’re lying and why is that? Because it’s MUCH easier to live with the lie, then to tell the truth, because if we TOLD The Hells Angels that men were pretending to be them while raping and selling children for sex, then what do you think their response would be?

As a survivor of men pretending to be Hells Angels, imagine my surprise when I saw the death of Jonathon Bacon on the front page, and only a short time later, the attempted murder of Jarrod Bacon, his wife, and their friend Larry Amero Jr.

Now let me say this:

Larry Amero Senior was NOT A Hells Angels Member, but Dennis Watson, who is LITERALLY my arch enemy in this fucking fight, will tell anyone who will listen that he was:

  • A Murderer
  • a child rapist
  • a lunatic who didn’t give a fuck about anyone in the world except his drugs

If that’s true, then why did it take the death of Larry Amero for the police to finally arrest  Earon Wayne Giles? Right after senior was killed  Earon Wayne Giles went to prison, but the problem with him going to prison is that although SOME of his victims got justice, many of us – most of us children – never got the justice we deserved, because they didn’t know about our stories.

They didn’t know, because when I was 16, I was kidnapped by a group of Indian men, I was sitting in a park, in the middle of the night, and they took me – I was too afraid to say no, and when I look back at that moment, I remember, that the reason that I was there, was because I was taken there, and it wasn’t by Hells Angels, it was by  Earon Wayne Giles. He left me there, and told me to wait, and when I waited, 3 Indian men came to take me to South Surrey.

I climbed through shit, through the dirt, I ended up at the house of an Asian man, who I’m pretty fucking sure knew what was happening, because I was screaming at the top of my lungs. When my mom and I reported it the cop who showed up didn’t do a fucking thing, they didn’t even investigate, I tried to say I’d been raped by a group of people led by  Earon Wayne Giles but I didn’t know him, ALL I had was a description, not a real name.

It took 25 years for me to find that fucking peice of shit, only to find out that he’d already been in jail, for OTHER crimes, meanwhile, every single person I loved, the Surrey Crew, the Wolf Pack members, the Red Scorpions, all of these people who created groups and gave htemselves a name so that they’d feel less alone, all these victims, were being turned into criminals, not because they wanted to, but because we were given a choice when we were being raped as children.

“You do as you’re told, or you die, you belong to the Hells Angels Now,” was rule number 3.

That meant that after being raped, tortured, branded, and beaten, for weeks on end, while teachers, doctors, parents, and everyone around us was led to believe that we were crazy, by other teachers, doctors, parents, and everyone around us, the Hells Angels were completely unaware a massive pedophile ring run by Keith Rainier and several other famous people like Peter Nasir and others, were pretending to be Hells Angels, to destroy the lives of children.

“Devon what do you want to be when you grow up?” I want to be Mayor of Surrey, British Columbia, I want to be the Loud Mouth Brown Girl, “well too fucking bad, you love and respect gangsters, so you can’t fucking be anything, because you support, PROUDLY, the Hells Angels, and other biker GANGS.”

Who gave these men the power to tell me who to be? Ignorance.

There are, and have been, for decades, crooked cops in Surrey, BC, and all over the province, and country, wearing these stupid dumb ass Blue Lives Matter patches, but no one gives a fuck because “Cops are the good guys.”

Okay well if that’s true how come Madison Sinclare is dead? I didn’t know her, and I didn’t meet her, ever, but I know the name now. I had to look her up because on the day that I handed in those journals, I told the police officer who attended with a psych nurse, that on the last night I was gang-raped by the SAME men who raped me as a child – that “Jamie Bacon says hello.” Why? Why the fuck would Jamie Bacon give a fuck about me? We’ve never met either. I wrote that in the journal, and so again I was asked, “have you ever met Madison Sinclaire?” I said no.

When I looked her up, I found out that she was dead. She died by an “overdose,” in a dirty hotel room by herself, many years after Jamie Bacon was arrested for the Surrey Six Murders.

Murders that etiher never happened, or were a cover up. When I was raped a lot of names were mentioned, many of the names, were names of people that I’d grown up with, partied with, and loved.

Several years before this happened, I was walking home from Christmas dinner, and I saw a man get stabbed in the back, it was horrifying and fucking scary, so I called the police because well what the fuck else do you do when you see a person get stabbed?

The police officer arrested the man who got stabbed. And let the man who did the stabbing go. I know this because i fucking watched it happen, and when I tried to say “no that’s not okay get off him you’re hurting him,” the cop didn’t care, put me in the back of a police car, drove me out to Guildford, and then they kept me in an office for over an hour before they asked hwy I gave a fuck about the man who got stabbed.

I was legit aske dthat question, “so why do you care?” UM BECAUSE A MAN GOT STABBED YOU FUCKING RETARDED IDIOT – AND YEAH I SAID THAT.

Why the fuck does a cop care more about what a witness saw, then about whether or not a man was stabbed? because the cops in Surrey don’t give a fuck.

Do you know what happens when you go to a Hells Angel and say “I was raped by men pretending to wear your patches?” they ask you flat out, “who dies first?”

THAT’S why we went to the cops, THAT’S why we told the truth, and the cops didn’t give a flying fuck, because they are too busy protecting themselves, than protecting the victims who need protecting.

If the wolf is literally in the cop station eating at the hens, then how the fuck are thens supposed to defend themselves, when we’re not allowed to ask people like Bikers for help, because if we do that then it counts as collusion, and if someone dies, then it’s our fault.

Okay so where’s the justice in that?

We’re not allowed to have bikers kill for us, and the cops refuse to jail the pedophiles that turned us into drug dealers.

I chose a different path, I chose to be free of that life, and then this happened.

Ronaldo Lising, 59, is expected to survive his injuries after the targeted shooting in the 7000-block of Patterson Avenue on Monday morning. – Vancouver Sun

Do you want to know why this man was shot? I’d go to the Police, and tell them but no one will believe me, so YET AGAIN I’m putting a fucking target on my fucking back, to put it here, on the fucking record.

THAT man, Ronaldo Lising, was shot because he knew what happened to us all as children, and we were warned that anyone who knows, will be hurt, in order to keep the rest of us quiet. Not EVERY Single time a Hells Angel in BC gets shot it’s because of what happened to us, but it sure as fuck was when Chad Wilson – who was a full patched Member of the HA – was killed and dumped in a fucking corner of Surrey BC.

For the last fucking time – when I was raped in my own bedroom in North Delta, Colby Palson told me flat out that one day he was going to turn his son Chad into a Hells Angels Member, and the plan was this:

Chad becomes HA, Chad rises through the ranks, and builds a house they would call HardSide, which was SUPPOSED to be located by the USA/Canada border.

When the police didn’t listen to me, I went to the Hells Angels, and I told them what was happening, Larry Amero jr knew, so did Jonathan Bacon, so did the entire Bacon family, and the reason they didn’t say anything is because Jonathon Bacon is dead.

So what did the Hells Angels do? They built Hardside, in the names of all the kids who were raped by Keith Rainier, Colby Palson, and Earon Wayne Giles.

What are these three idiots doing now? Keith Rainier is in prison for 125 years where i hope he fucking dies in the most violent and blooody way possible – and yeah he had more than 500 victims, most of them women and children, so let him rot.

Earon Wayne Giles has a crack addictiont hat i hope he gets help with, so that when he goes back to prison, he ends up spending hte rest of his life remembering the horrible things he did to children without ever having a break from the misery he caused. He can own that for himself, his victims will no longer carry the shame of his decisions.

And where’s Colby Palson? Delcaring war on everyone who took his dream away, his dream of starting a pedophile community at the USA/Canadian border, where he would have spent the rest of his life destroying as many lives as possible.

There are over 1500 kids who are in prison, institutions, or who are DEAD, because these three absolute fucking goofs pretending to be Hells Angels, and created a council called The Bloodline Brotherhood, where they groomed, beat, tortured, raped, and murdered, people to keep us silent, while they got away with doing whatever they wanted to do, while blaiming the Hells Angels.

So Why Can’t Devon J Hall, ever be in Politics? Because I’ll go to my death bed supporting a biker or gangster, before I’ll ever trust a cop again. I don’t give a fuck how many times you say they can be trusted, you can NEVER trust a cop wearing blue and fucking black patches that say “Blue Lives Matter,” while Jamie Bacon, and Dayon Glasglow – as well as 1475 young people rest in a fucking prison they didn’t create.

If you want the victims and survivors to trust you, then you have to listen to us when we tell you that Doug McCallum was ONLY ever about building a legacy, but he’s about as crooked as they come.

For those of you who ALWAYS paid attention, for the rest of you, I fucking told you yesterday. If the RCMP and the Police services of this province don’t start doing something, those who want to avenge the survivors are going to start doing that, and there’s ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, you’ll be able to do, to stop what is coming.

There’s only so long parents can sit back and watch their children be destroyed by the mental health issues caused by racism, white supremacy, rape, torture, and the theft of more than 5 million children across Canada.

5 Million, that we know about.

The Hels Angels are the bad guys in BC? The Biker Gangs are the bad guys? Then how come when 1 victim went to the police with 6 fucking journals detailing every single place she was raped, with so many others, that she lost count, every single person who was questioned about what happened to me – who were survivors and victims in tehri OWN right – was either committed, called crazy, arrested, or ignored…by the cops?

The bad ones are listening. Which means that the city of Surrey better be prepare for that gang war that I’ve been warning about on various social media platforms for the last 10 years, because I’ve now put you all on notice.

Loud Mouth Brown Girl, does not work with Terrorists. And while YOU see a Terrorist that looks like this:

In BC We know that the real problem isn’t that Hells Angels are running the drug trade, sure that’s fucking awful right? But you know what’s worse? It’s the cop with a gun to the head of the Hells Angel selling the drugs, the cop(S) capitalizing on the child porn, the sex trafficking trade, the drug world, while pretending to be the good guy.

It’s the newspapers referring to women witnesses as snitches, it’s the newspapers saying that Mike Ross and Bruce Davis are really smart enough to start a gang 5 years ago, and have it spread across Canada in that quick a time. Having known both of them since we were children, I can promise you that neither of these two fucking idiots, are either smart enough, or powerful enough, to have created the Wolf Pack.

For those that don’t know: The Wolf Pack is Not A Hells Angels Puppet Club : They Do Not Sell Drugs, but as long as the newspapers condition you to believe that TERRORISM ONLY happens in former countries, the truth is that TERRORISM IS DEFINED AS THIS:

Terrorism is the unlawful use of force or violence against persons or property to intimidate or coerce a government or its citizens to further certain political or social objectives. Law enforcement generally recognizes two types of terrorism: domestic and international.

Nowhere in that definition does it say that terrorism can’t be caused by bad cops, or fake people, nowhere in the world did anyone expect that the war on the world, would affect North America, because Canada is the nice country, its the place with all the nice people, right? Couldn’t be fucking happier to live in a place filled with white supremacy, led by the most important white supremacist in the country, (brown face, really? I warned you this was coming JT).

If we can’t go to a teacher because they know about it and are a part of it, if we can’t go to the principal, if we can’t go to the doctor, the dentist, if we can’t go to a cop, then why the fuck would we NOT go to the Hells Angels? Why would we NOT go to the Wolf Pack Sons to ask for help? What fucking choice did we have?

Not too long ago I posted an essay about Sex Dolls for Sex Dolls Dot Com and I made 500 dollars for that post, and I was really proud of it. And then people got SUPER fucking angry and said this “How can you have been through all that and still want to have sex?”

Um excuse me? I’m supposed to stop my life because a bunch of fucking crooked cops and criminals decided to try and destroy the Hells Angels in Canada, by pretending to be them so they could get away with child sex trafficking? But crooked cops makes me crazy?

Okay cool. I’ll telll you what.

The best poem that was ever written is called Why I Play With My Cunt – and it’s a manifesto from the original Goddess spirit, to the author who wrote it, to the girl who took it, to the woman who can’t remember it, to all the women who need to remember the Vagina Monologues were a warning too.

We WARNED You. We Are The Sons, Daughters, And Allies, of The Witches That Didn’t – That Refused to Burn.

I would love to say that I am going to be traumatized forever, but ya’ll pissed me off. I wrote the book on how to get to this place where you could be free of your past, and then I realized that I want to publish it, but I don’t want to do it alone.

The ONLY way for Loud Mouth Brown Girl to exist all, is for all the people who read this blog to understand something:

I am a Mixed-Race, Creole, Black White, English, Irish, Scottish, Jamaican, Gypsy woman who has travelled through space and time. I’m a million years older than many people believe – you call it being an Old Soul, I call it being not stupid enough to believe that if you’re connected to a Hells Angel with a bunch of patches as proof of the work it to become full patched, you’d also be DUMB enough to rape the children of full patched Hells Angels, who were too afraid to say, “I’m being raped by men pretending to be my dad and I don’t know what to do about it.”

Or mom. Or friend. Or Ally.

It happens all over the world, child sex trafficking is HAPPENING AND HAS BEEN HAPPENING IN CANADA and until we actually start looking not at the peole selling the kids alone, but EVERY fucking person who KNEW about it and said NOTHING, there is never going to be peace in the streets.

It won’t matter how many Hells Angels or Banditos, or Crips, or Bloods, or Sons, or Angels, Demons, Vampires, Slayers, Teachers, Lawyers and Celebrities show up for the victims, if the stupid ass crooked ass fucking goof cops who raped children, don’t end up in prison.

So.

Wanna work with the Loud Mouth Brown Girl, then this is the Accord I’m looking for: Stop expecting that i am EVER going to turn on a Hells Angel before I turn on a cop. I’ve known since I was about 2 years old I as a mixed race child was going to be a victim, what I couldn’t possibly have expected however, is that as an adult, I’d have to clean up the mess of the cops who should HAVE PROTECTED all of us, instead of pretending to be Hells angels members.

Sending all my love,

Devon J Hall and the …aw fuck it, you idiots know who you are.


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2 thoughts on “The Loud Mouth Brown Girl Handbook: How To Deal With The Fact That When The Cops Finally Start Listening, They Still Expect Me To Blame Innocent People For Gang Rape, and Child Sex Trafficking in Canada

  1. I always say to the isolated city folks who are happy in their nice bubble that those bad and barbaric things they used to hear about in the past?

    Yeah, they are still happening. They are just that much better hidden.

    Or more like, no one pays attention to them anymore.

    Sad to read your recount, cheers for you for trying to get passed this and live your life.

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