When you’ve come to a place of acknowledging your trauma, it can throw you for such a loop that you completely forget what you are capable of. At the moment it’s easy to remember because you need to to survive, but after you’ve survived, it’s really easy to forget that you have skills and talents that no one else does.
Remembering those skills takes work, and the longer you procrastinate from using them, the worse it gets and the harder they are to remember. So I put my Services Page Back up and like the Go Fund Me page where I’m asking the audience to help support this site, I’m refusing to take it down.
For all the reasons I don’t want to get into, money has always been an issue for me. I’ve struggled with needing or wanting anything to do with it, and if I had the privilege of living the life I want without it, I would, but that being said, money is a big important part of life.
So I’m trying to accept that while accepting that the knowledge in my head is worth something to people outside of my head.
Self-confidence is a huge part of the battle when it comes to dealing with mental health issues, and like I said, when you get knocked over, it’s hard to believe that you can get back up again, and sometimes that requires doing it alone, but sometimes it requires help.
I want people to look at LMBG as the foundation of where patient mental health discussions start, and I want to be a part of the conversation when we’re talking about where patients need the most help, in order for that to happen I have to be able to earn an income from this website, or at the very least break even.
Going forward there will be services, more books hopefully, as well as posts that you can pay to read, most of those posts will contain information about Cannabis as I grow with my cannabis education.
I am excited about this next phase of Loud Mouth Brown Girl, but I am also afraid that it’s going to be a massive failure, but if I don’t do it now then I’m going to keep swirling around the same drain expecting different results and I’m really tired of that.
It’s scary because I know there’s a lot of work to do before I can start earning enough money to call this website an economic success, but I’m excited about the process of building and the next level of what this website can be.
I look forward to your thoughts and comments, so please feel free to leave one below.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall