I’m watching Lost Girl.
It’s a show about a woman who learns that she is part of a world filled with creatures called Fay, or Fey.
They are Faeries and Succubus’s and Druids and Wolfs and Blood Kings. It’s a beautiful story of self discovery and love with a bisexual lead who feeds on sexual energy known as Chi.
In the story, Beau, the lead, is told over and over again she has to choose between the light and the dark. However, Beau being Beau, she decides that she’s going to remain neutral.
Which means that she stays out of fay politics, although she occasionally does favors for members of the light and dark community in return for information about where she comes from.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the light and the dark, good and evil. Often times I have found myself saying out loud that I would, or I do choose the light.
The thing is that in our world that is absolutely a choice that we have to make. Especially when I look across the border to America, or next door to Alberta.
I am thinking about all these teachers who are being forced to go back to work, and the students they are being forced to teach and I have a genuine worry for the safety of everyone involved.
I am curious about the rushing of opening of schools when we clearly haven’t hit the tip of the iceberg when it comes to this pandemic.
I am thinking a lot about the Politician’s that we vote into office, and I keep wondering how four years after President Obama, things seemed to go downhill so quickly.
The effect of American Politics and policies on Canadian politics isn’t lost on me. The more chaotic that America becomes, the more Canada seems to follow suit, at least in some places…like the aforementioned Alberta.
Proud boys were just a few months ago rolling through the streets of Alberta talking about how under privileged and overlooked they are. They attended rallies in Charlottsville and other places in the USA, to proclaim how tough life was for white folk in Canada, just like it is for America.
In Lost Girl there is a council on both the light and the dark, each of these councils and the Ash and the Morrigan lead their people from behind a shadowy world of fey like creatures.
In real life we have people we vote into office, and I cannot understand how we can continue making the same fucking mistakes over and over and over again.
I can’t understand how it is that we continue to vote into office people that clearly do not have our best interests at heart, even though that’s what they promise us as they run for the chance to rule us.
We are the creators of our own demise.
I don’t know who said that, but I think it’s true. We make choices in this world, and in those choices we define our reality, one brick in the wall at a time.
There is an ancient story that talks of fights of good versus evil, and how even though the wars of the past ended, the blood that seeped into the ground also seeped into the blood of humans.
We are fighting for good versus evil. I say that looking at Seattle, Portland, California, Bosnia, Afghanistan, Washington and Ottawa. We are not merely fighting against Police brutality anymore, but the thought process that led us to being a patriarchal society that feeds on white supremacy.
Part of me thinks that we would be better off if women ruled the world, but the thing is that we need both. We need women, men, non-binary folks, trans folks and everyone in between.
In order to have true balance we must learn to work together…but then I have to ask myself. How do I learn to work with someone who wants me dead because of the color of my skin? Or because of who I choose to love? Or because my values do not align with theirs?
How do I find the balance in the knowing that these people want to murder me?
I don’t know if I would choose light or dark today, all I know is that it’s time we start educating ourselves on things like mental health and rape culture. It’s time that the people we put into office are held accountable for their choices.
It’s time we stop electing people like Doug McCallum, in Surrey. He had his chance and he fuggled up the city once before, and now he’s doing it again.
I have yet to hear him make any comments on Covid that help me to feel more safe and secure in the idea that we should open up. In fact I have yet to hear him make any comments at all. And I’ve been looking for them.
I’m exhausted as I write this, and it’s not just from constantly having to repeat myself on voter reform and the empowerment we have to take into our own hands by voting.
I am physically exhausted because I don’t feel safe in my own bed, and that’s because we live in a patriarchal society that would rather claim I am psychotic than admit that we have a serious problem with white supremacy in this town.
I’m not going to stop talking about it just because I am afraid, I am going to harness my inner Isabeau and continue to do what I think is right.
So I implore you, if you are American….in 98 days, do the right thing and vote with your heart.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 