Yup, it’s true. I used to know a woman who went by Broken Promise, who said I didn’t understand love because I was only 16 and to her mind, too young to understand what love was, because I was passionately falling in and out of love with people I met online.
But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized how I see love has changed exponentially compared to how I used to see love.
The older I get, the more I say “I love you,” to fewer people, and it’s not because I love fewer people it’s because I get more and more afraid that if I do say it, I’ll be rejected.
This is a common fear among people my age, but when I posted it on Twitter, I got responses from a few people swearing they say it more, which I totally get. When we get older we start losing people to illness, suicide, and even murder in some cases, and so saying the words have more merit now.
I want you to trust me when I say I love you. There are a lot of famous people, a lot of non-famous people I know, that I haven’t gotten to say the words to, but know that if I ever told you that you were loved by me at the time I meant it, and whatever happened between us, I still mean it now.
I love you for having been in my life, I love you for influencing me, I love you for being here to support me, and I am grateful for your place in my life, even if you aren’t here now.
I am moving into 2023 with a new perspective. I want to build new relationships, start my new business, which is something I’ve always wanted to do, and I am thoroughly excited about what’s to come.
Today I am sending out an I love you to every single person who does not hear the words “I love you,” enough.
Rest in song and dance tWitch
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
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