I used to think that originality is dead, but it’s not that it’s dead, it’s that we don’t appreciate it when we see it.
Having a white man (a cop) call me a loud-mouth brown bitch isn’t new, I’ve heard that before.
But “I” am the one that took that phrase and turned it into something beautiful.
“You were born an original work of art. Stay original always. Originals cost more than imitations.”
― Suzy Kassem, Rise Up and Salute the Sun: The Writings of Suzy Kassem
So in a few weeks, I am going to celebrate myself with some close friends and family and oddly I am nervous.
I’m throwing myself a party, and there will be pictures, I will dress up, and all of this will not have been for nothing. “I wish I could say that” I hear a voice say, not my voice, but the voice of a little girl that I used to resemble. A girl who didn’t think she’d go anywhere or be anything.
I am going places, and I’m getting there step by step little by little, and I’m both shocked, and frustrated. Shocked because I was that little girl, and frustrated because it was not all coming together faster. I’m ready for more, but I also know that “more” comes when you’re ready for it and not one moment before.
I’ve also decided to cancel the podcast Stay Lifted Sis. I’m not in a place where. I can focus on creating something I don’t love, and I keep missing recording sessions I am just not as passionate about recording a podcast as I am about writing and other creative areas. So while it was fun, I’m quite content to let other people focus on creating podcasts.
I struggle with deadlines, and in knowing that, I know this is the best position to be in right now. Where I can try all kinds of new things and explore and test what works and what doesn’t.
So celebrating the foundation of this blog, and everything it’s brought to my life feels really special.
I just want to say thank you for reading. Please keep it up. You give me reasons to keep breathing and that means the world to me because I know you all already know this and you’re still here.
I love you. You’re amazing generous people who I trust with my words and you give me the respect and freedom to say what I have to say without judging me. Not everyone can say that.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
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