True Confessions of a Hollywood Starlet
Valerie Bertinelli is an international treasure for this film alone. There’s a scene in the film where her character asks Jojo’s character, “what do you want?” No one had ever asked me that question before, I was always asking what other people wanted from me, or needed, and doing my best to give it to them. My whole life I did that because it was the only way I knew how to function as a human being.
It wasn’t until I asked myself what I wanted, that I realized I wanted to do something that matters, that serves others but also helps to heal my spirit, that I literally lucked into being The Loud Mouth Brown Girl. Sure there are lots of little and big moments that led up to this, but the idea of me being the LMBG, that was a surprise, to me at least.
Lots of people used this title against me as an insult as if it was a bad thing that I was both Loud and Brown, like “how dare she be both, or even either?” this is who I am. I don’t know what to tell you.
There are those out there that are angry – genuinely – that I am moving on with my life, but like, hi, I invited you to join me and you said no? So I don’t know what to tell you, here I am making moves and being proud of myself because i’ve damned well earned the right to be.
I never want to forget day 111522. That’s the day that I, Devon J Hall, signed a book contract, for the first time in my life, and a day that I hope will repeat itself regularly.
I want to write more books than Nora Roberts, I don’t care what they’re about I just want to make sure that they are well-written books that need to be written, by me.
I want to work with other authors, I want to have a dozen publishing houses around the world to work with, and I want to travel the world hearing stories and having experiences that only “I” get to share with the world.
From Ghana to Istanbul I want to go everywhere, see everything, eat all the things, and learn from all the people. And this is the very beginning of my journey.
The only way. to get there, to do those things, is to keep going, moving forward, never backward, always forward.
I didn’t have that kind of belief in myself as a kid, but I do now, and it feels really good. I just want to take a moment to say thank you for being here for this. Because for the last 5 years you’ve read all the essays, been here to support me, and given me a reason to keep writing. Thank you. Everything you do matters. Thank you for giving me a reason to find purpose in this world again.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
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