On top of everything that is going really well in my “work” life, and even in my personal life, if I am being honest, there is still the fact that we are still in the middle of the pandemic. Hell, we’re not even in the middle yet, it’s just getting started, in spite of what Donald Trump wants you to believe.
I have found that I can’t bring myself to refer to him as the President of the United States of America, because nothing about Donald Trump seems presidential to me.
He’s such a fucking tool. I know I shouldn’t say that about another world leader, I know that as the creator of a group of diplomatic characters whose focus is on cultural diversity I should be more critical, and I should be more diplomatic, but I just don’t have it in me.
My disdain for him has only grown over the last four years, and I am struck by how uncomfortable it is that I love America as I do. I probably would not be as blunt as I am being, if I didn’t love America as much as I do.
I have always thought of America as this shining jewel in the world, one of the many countries that make this planet a wonderful place to be. The more that I learn about what life is like for those that live there, the more I start to understand the layers and layers of lies that we were forced to swallow as children.
I was lucky that I had very pragmatic teachers who taught us to think critically, but that didn’t stop me from fantasizing and creating these very utopia like views of places like America.
I’ve never had the same kind of love for Canada that I have had for America, and I think that’s because I live here, and I know how hard it has been for me to find a way to survive everything that I have been through.
I am about to do an interview about my life, and every time I do an interview with another podcaster or another Content Creator, I find myself saying “everyone thinks that Canada is this nice utopia filled with wonderful people….however, let me ruin your illusions.”
The truth is that life in Canada is difficult, it might not be as difficult as it is in places like Palestine, a place most of the world likes to ignore the existence of, or Israel, it may not be as difficult as life might be in South Africa or in Egypt, but it’s fucking difficult.
Women are still fighting for equal rights here, we are still in a state of shock that women are treated just as unfairly here as they are in America. We still have men who think it’s okay to murder women for not behaving the way that men think women should behave.
We have our problems, and on top of all those problems, we are living in a pandemic.
That’s a lot for us to be wearing on our shoulders. The world is traumatized right now. Never in the history of time has there been a generation that is as filled with trauma as ours is, because the trauma is global.
Every human on earth is watching people die from this invisible virus, and we’re watching White cops get away with actual murder in the lives of Black American’s and it’s just a lot.
So when you look back at this post from twenty years in the future, know that we’re doing the absolute best that we can, to get from one day to the next. Most of us aren’t thinking about thriving right now, we’re not thinking about planting roots and growing, a lot of us are just trying to survive from one moment to the next, so that we can climb our way up the mountain to some sort of peace.
A lot of us are suffering right now, some of us, such as myself are blessed incredibly so to have a roof over our heads, and food in our bellies, television to watch and our bills paid. But that’s not the reality for a lot of folks. A lot of folks are living on the streets and suffering right now.
I don’t see a future where there is a world without homelessness, because we are a class based race of people, and there will always be those who have a lot, those who have a little, and others who have nothing.
That’s just the reality of our situation, but if you have the ability, if you had the ability, I hope you’ve taken at least one moment a day to make someone else’s day better. Whether it’s by offering a smile, or sharing a laugh, or buying someone a cup of coffee and something to eat. I hope you make the effort, because right now the world needs a little more effort.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 