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I am okay.
Sometimes I wonder genuinely why it is that I am not further ahead in the world than I wish I were, until I realize that I am exactly where I need to be. Two days ago I saw one of the men who was in the room the night I was gang raped. This was…
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Okay…I may have let my anger get the best of me for a minute there…
When I first moved to Surrey, I met a boy who gave me a necklace with a small bird on it. It wasn’t anything special, I am pretty sure he got it at the dollar store, but it meant the world to me. It became the talisman for a love never experienced, a crush I…
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How I learned to find inner peace
When I got home from Winnipeg, after being arrested for having a panic attack, for the first time in my life I started to habitually smoke marijuana. An interesting thing started to happen to me after that, I started getting really quiet. During the day I would fill my time by writing or painting, drawing…
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The Book is Coming
When I was about ten or so I had this vision, there is no other word for it. It was of Nazi Germany, and all I could see was this beautiful Creole woman with finger curls on the side of her head. She was wearing a fascinatingly red dress with blink all over it, and…
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Teaching yourself…
“Be a lamp unto yourself” – The Buddha when asked by his disciple who would be their teacher after his passing. Our teachers exist to teach us to learn. ~Devon J Hall Teachers come into our lives in a thousand different ways. Think about the way that you interact with the people you come across…
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Something is missing…and I am not sure what it is.
I’ve never felt like this before, I mean sure I’ve always figured that I am a little out of whack with the universe, but in this particular case I feel like I missing out on something, and I am not sure what it is. Until this moment I was specifically quite happy with how my…
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Yay for new furniture
So my new furniture came today, three tables, a couch a love seat and a chair and I am really happy with it. I just need to get rid of the old furniture to make room for the new, which I should have done first, but then again what’s life without a little ass backery…
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Marketing for Idiots
Recently Barnes and Nobel released the story of a plan to change the cover of classic books and novels, to include the more diverse characters. Instead of just pushing artists of Colour, they would rather change the covers of books to convince us the same old racist stories, aren’t actually as racist as they are.…
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Talk Dirty to Me, #TriggerWarning
So I want to talk about sex, sexuality and BDSM. Because it’s one of the things that helped me discover my deepest sexual and psychological needs, after being abused. That being said, if you are easily triggered, please do not read this post, I explain things in detail that may trigger shame or guilt in…
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I will never stop talking about sex
In my last post I talked about the kinds of sex that I used to like, and in some cases still do. In this post I need to talk about why it’s important to talk about sex after you’ve been abused. This isn’t an easy topic for most people, but especially those of us who…
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Siddha, Surrey
Siddha Lee Saint James was curled up on an antique settee made of dark maple wood and the softest deep shade of purple she could find. It sat in front of a giant picture window that gazed out lovingly over King George Highway and 108th avenue. The apartment sat over top of the Creole Cafe,…
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Time for a new tattoo I think…
Tattoos are to me, a reminder of the sacrifice and the journey, that we’ve taken to make it to the point of inking the reminder into our flesh. They are sacred to me. Every tattoo I have I picked for a purpose. My Witch as a reminder of what happens when you mess with that…
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 
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