So my new furniture came today, three tables, a couch a love seat and a chair and I am really happy with it. I just need to get rid of the old furniture to make room for the new, which I should have done first, but then again what’s life without a little ass backery once in awhile?
Cleaning for me is incredibly stressful, I don’t know why but I have a serious problem. I get super lazy, and then when it comes time to clean I get completely overwhelmed. I think it’s the repetition. Once I clean something I expect, wrongly, that it is going to stay clean and then when it doesn’t, enter the overwhelming feeling of “I can’t do this.”
However that being said I spent the last two days helping my mom organize and clean up some of the mess, and we got quite a bit done which is why I didn’t have blog posts ready for yesterday or today, but I am happy with the end result. There will be more to come as spring rolls into the timeline, and I am excited to see my home become a sanctuary again like it used to be.
There was a time when I loved cleaning, when it brought a release to me, and I am not entirely sure what happened – I think honestly, and strangely it has to do with the time I miscarried. I think there is something about “letting go” of the past that brings a stress out in me that I am not comfortable dealing with. But I’m not a shrink so who knows.
My new furniture is here, my living room is clean and organized and I am happy. That’s all I have today.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
