These are not words I have ever said. They are not words I ever thought I would need to say. I was always going to be a writer, I was always going to have some sort of gig in the radio industry, I just had no idea that at thirty-seven, this is exactly where I would end up.
Sexual abuse and trauma took a lot of years out of my life. I didn’t really have time in my twenties to think about my dreams, or my future, because I was so busy hiding from my past and making the same mistakes over and over again.
I was too busy hiding from my true self, to really understand what it is that I wanted out of life. Even though I was absolutely convinced that I was certain I knew what I wanted.
I had no fucking clue, that when I grew up, I’d want to be a Content Creator. I always knew, as soon as I discovered the internet, that my future job would have something to do with the internet, but I had no idea that years of practice blogs were leading to Loud Mouth Brown Girl.
Sure, somewhere in the back of my mind, the words always echoed, but they didn’t really mean anything to me, until I discovered this brand and started peeling back the layers of my life, to discover what it could be, if I’d just put a little effort into it.
Sometimes I wonder where I am going with all this content creation stuff, because I don’t usually think about what I am doing before I do it, I just go with what feels right.
When I am creating, I am not thinking about the audience, I am thinking about the things inside my head, that I need to get out of my head. Thus you find yourselves reading about my politics, policies, my mental health, and my cannabis use.
Talking about these topics helps me to heal, and if that means that I am a content creator by trade, then I guess that is what I am doing.
I am watching Stargate Atlantis right now, and all I can think is how much I love the medium of film and television. I love seeing the stories that I’ve only imagined in my head, become reality by way of film and television. I love seeing the hard work that goes into making these stories become a version of real.
It amazes me that people can take the written word and do so much with it. They change the way the world sees itself, words, in general, hold up a mirror to the world in so many different ways, expressed by millions of people every single day.
I want to be a part of that circle of people who use words to change the world. In as many different and diverse ways as possible I want my words to matter to the world.
Content Creator isn’t what I thought I’d be doing as a job when I grew up, but now that I am growing into the industry and finding my footing in this very, very, old industry, I am starting to realize that there is a lot that I would change if I could.
I want to be a part of making room for people of color, especially biracial people to speak up and to be heard. I want to create a vast network of men and women from around the world who are sharing their stories in ways other people just are not.
I want to learn about the coming trends and find ways to work them to my advantage, I am on the hunt for knowledge, and I am thirsty for experiences that change the way that I see the world.
So mom, I am a content creator, and I am very proud to be joining this community.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 