I decided to pony up, and surprised myself by heading over to Fiverr.Com and buying a logo from Marcus and he did a fucking phenomenal job. He gave me some suggestions to look at and I picked my favorite style and here we have the brand new logo for Loud Mouth Brown Girl and it’s perfect.
I do believe that we’re going to have to work with him more in the future as I said, he’s done a really great job. All I suggested were the colors gold, black and camouflage, and he did the rest and I am so proud of it.
Part of wanting a new logo was about wanting something that was mine and totally mine that I could use on t-shirts and other swag that I want to sell through the website, but part of it was wanting a fuller identity for the website.
I know, without a shadow of a doubt that I am most certainly a loud mouth, unafraid of saying the things that needed to be said and I wanted something that represents that. Each of the colors has a special meaning to me.
Red represents the blood, sweat and tears spilled while trying to survive the years of being sexually abused. It also represents the blood of the Angel’s who have died due to suicide or sexual abuse.
Gold represents money and success but more than that it represents the standard to which I want to live my life, a better quality of life if you will.
Camo represents those who are still fighting to escape a world filled with sexual abuse, those who are still Soldiering on, even though they may feel like they don’t deserve to live.
Every day that we continue to fight against sexual abuse, is another day of success, and sometimes that fight looks like screaming from the mountain tops, and other days it’s ripping your hair out of your head wondering why you are still alive.
Yet we continue on. We continue to fight, so yes, regardless of what others might think, we are soldiers in this war, and yeah some days it sucks, but some days it’s fucking amazing.
Today is one of those amazing days. Today I woke up feeling not so great, and was pleasantly surprised by Marcus getting me my logo in just a few short hours time, he did such a great job that I will most certainly be using him for more work in the future.
I think I said that already, but more than that it confirms that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing at this time, in this place, at this moment. I am doing what my heart tells me is the right thing to do.
Sexual abuse is only a part of my story however, so I have to continue to remind myself that there are other things to talk about, to write about and to share without letting myself get down in the dumps. So I am proud to announce I am working on a new book.
A book of essay’s, some I’ve written before and others that I have re-written or that have never seen the light of day before.
I am hoping to have an October 31st reveal, and I will be offering it through Amazon, so that’s exciting. I’ve already started writing a few brand new essays, and while I’m not entirely sure what the book is going to be yet, I am excited to see what it becomes.
As my writing evolves I am stuck by the fact that I can’t bring myself to write fiction right now. I just don’t care enough about the medium to make shit up, and I think that’s largely because I spent so many years telling lies to hide my abuse that writing fiction sort of feels like that.
So while I’m not ready to write fiction, I am in fact writing, and that’s good enough for me.
What are you working on this week?
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall