I have long had a vision for my life. I was always going to be a Writer, that was never a question. As I got older however, I found myself fantasizing about owning my own business one day.
I just didn’t know what it was going to be. As a teenager, I was fascinated with the idea of having a nightclub, I always thought it would be cool to own my own nightclub.
Now that I am building this brand, one of my favorite visions is this idea of buying a small town and turning it into a Marijuana Sanctuary for those who don’t drink or use drugs, but do smoke pot. An artists haven if you will, built out of the bones of a ghost town.
I also want a clothing line, I mean I have a hoodie line, but my favorite singer of all time, Selena owned a clothing line before she died, and I always thought it would be cool to have my own clothes. Now that I am older, specifically my own line of shoes, especially because I have size twelve feet, and it’s very hard to find shoes in that size.
I want a line of perfume because I love to play with scent, currently my favorite is fire, I think it’s called by Beyonce.
I want to have a marijuana pot farm, that is specifically for those who use it medicinally and cannot afford access to Cannabus, and I would very much like to have a radio show again one day.
There are a lot of things that need to happen before I can see any of those dreams becoming a reality. Recently I had a plan for this website, and I decided to go against the plan and I made a mistake…but that being said, I am learning that mistakes are apart of business.
I am also learning to remember that I am an entrepreneur, which is scary. I have to constantly remind myself that this “blogging thing’ is work, and if I don’t show up then the doors don’t open.
I want this website to be a magazine, not just a blog. I want this website to read like a digital book that melds fantasy, majick and reality, and I have a vision for the characters I am building on this website.
So as long as I stick to the plan I should be good right? Unfortunately the universe doesn’t always do things according to our plans. Life would be easy if it did, and we all know the universe ain’t the most easy place to exist.
On my mental vision board of what I want this website to be, is the word “connection”. I want to connect with other Bloggers who are writing about marijuana and mental health.
I want to connect with people who understand that dealing with mental health issues is fucking difficult, especially when you are addicted to toxins that destroy your body, mind and soul.
I said today in my meeting, that I wanted to learn to advocate for myself, so that I can help others to learn to advocate for themselves. I want to be able to hone that skill that I used to have so easily.
I need to remember who I used to be, so that I can remember who it is that I can be, does that make sense?
To that end I have a question for you. Loud Mouth Brown Girl, what do those words mean to you? What sparks when you hear that phrase? Who I am these days is fragile, and just a little bit broken, but just a little less shattered than I used to be.
There are people in my life who have inspired me and pushed me to believe that I can do anything, and that I am safe and loved…and I want that to be a part of this brand too.
I don’t just want to be accountable, I want to remember always, to take time to show grace and be grateful for the lessons, even when they sting just a little bit.
To that end, I need your help. I need to know what it is that you expect of me, so that I can ensure that LMBG is about “us” not just “me”.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall