How do you find recovery after sexual abuse? What are the steps to healing after trauma? How do you survive being a Black woman, who as a child was raped by white supremacists?
I once heard a man say he owned me, after removing his hand from my vagina. A White man.
Have you ever heard anything more disgusting in your life? I have, but I won’t go into them all here.
The point is that I am a free woman. I decided that. There is a part of me that rebels against the idea of being with a man ever again. The idea that I have a choice, scares the crap out of me.
Growing up I didn’t have a choice, boys and men alike made sure that my body was always under their control.
Right now there is a White supremacist in the highest office in the land. I am witnessing men, women and children being abused by Police officers, as the people try to peacefully protest Police Violence.
Meanwhile the man in office encourages the Police to continue to be violent, as he builds an eight foot high wall around the White House…as if he is fortifying the most sanctimonious building in North America.
I am fucking tired. And I am depressed, and I am tired of fighting and I don’t know today, how much more I have inside of me.
That’s it. That’s the post.