Has this taught you what it’s like to be Black in America? How lovely for you. Now you understand what my brother’s and sisters, mothers, fathers and aunties have been going through for hundreds of years in your country. Remember that time a guy got a ticket for eating a sandwich on a train platform? Yeah he was a Black guy.
Remember that time the cops were called on a Black family because they were barbecuing? Remember in 2019 when it became all the rage for white folk to call the cops on Black folk for…living? For existing in the same space as the aforementioned white folk? This is the reality for millions of Americans, Canadians and people living in Europe every single day.
Shame on you for not making that connection. Shame on you for choosing to not understand that this is exactly what we have been saying life is like for poor Black folk. Fuck you for having to make me explain this to you in plain ordinary English.
Maybe if you stepped down from your privilege you would understand, maybe if you understood you could be a part of the solution instead of the fucking problem that occurs whenever a Black person whispers “fucking white people” under their breath, every…fucking…day…of…their….lives.
Little girls being tackled to the ground by white cops for having a water fight. Little boys gunned down in the streets for wearing a hood over their heads, when the reality is that most hoods come in White.
For context, I was raped as a child and the excuse was always, always, that it was because I was brown. Because I wasn’t Black and I didn’t have any Black family, then there was nothing to fear.
It took me thirty-six years to learn to stand up for myself, to tell my truths in a way that made sure I was safe even if I don’t actually feel safe. I am unprotected, by anyone that I know or care to know, I am alone. A single woman who talks about rape and sexual abuse every single day of her life, for my absolute survival.
Statistically speaking…I am one of the Black girls that should have been murdered long before then, but instead of an actual death I faced the kind of spiritual death that only comes from being raped by white supremacists who think that they can do whatever they want because they believe they are the superior race.
Statistically speaking I should be dead, but it took a fucking virus to wake you up to the fact that those of us who have been experiencing the behavior of being arrested for BEING A LIVE HUMAN has been happening and you chose, yes chose, not to notice until it started happening to people who are white. Like You.
Fuck You.
FUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK You.
Say that loudly, because it’s how it’s mean to be fucking read.
If you haven’t noticed, genuinely that this has been happening for the last two hundred years around the world you are admitting that for the last years of your life you chose to be a blind deaf fucking idiot and that makes me feel sorry for you.
Welcome to our reality, it fucking sucks. You get arrested for living. You get beaten up for being colored, you get beaten down because you are strong and very few people will give a fuck until it happens to them. Hope you like it here.
Sending all my love to the idiots of the world because lord Jesus they need it,
Devon J Hall
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 