Yesterday I woke up and went through my usual routine of having a smoke and a coffee, before immediately crawling back into bed, to sleep for another hour and a half. I was so exhausted I couldn’t see straight, and I wasn’t interested in being productive even though technically I was.
I did the laundry and made dinner, so that’s something, because making dinner meant that I also had to do the fucking dishes.
But I wasn’t happy about it, because I was exhausted. Part of the reason I was so miserable, was because I had to face the reality that once upon a time someone tried to sacrifice my fucking soul in a creepy satanic sex ritual.
It hurt to know that I was used in such an awful way, and knowing that no one believes me just makes the hurt even worse, because then you start to wonder if you’re crazy.
Just when I thought I had sunk lower than I’d ever sunk before, I decided to check the mail only to find out that the official Loud Mouth Brown Girl hoodie finally arrived, and I couldn’t be happier.
It’s beautiful, it’s black and it has the logo on the front, and now I am thinking of things I can add to the back to make it more appealing to you to buy, but I am so proud that this is here, because it’s step one in making the Loud Mouth Brown Girl blog into an actual brand that means something more than just sex abuse.
I am excited now about step two, which is finding a way to make money off this blog, and I am excited about the prospect of being the loud mouth brown girl for the foreseeable future.
I am also excited about all the people who are going to see my shirt and want to buy one, because let’s face it, I am so awesome it’s going to be a best seller.
Probably not but I am okay with that too.
Sending all my love,
Devon J Hall