• 18 Hours To Go Until #SurvivorsConnection

    When this all started – as I have said many times before – I really didn’t have a game plan for what Loud Mouth Brown Girl was going to become. I know there is going to come a day when I have to actually focus on making plans to make sure that things go the…

  • Sometimes It Takes A Few Years For The World To Catch Up To Your Brilliance

    Ever since I was a child, I knew that I was really smart. But I didn’t know how to convey that smartness to other people, and somewhere inside I knew that I was going to have to wait for the rest of the world to catch up with my brain. In the mean time I…

  • Defeat Is Not An Option

    On days when I feel like shit, on days when I feel like the world is just this hard, cruel, ball of evil, floating through the universe, I get almost no work done on the brand stuff. Right now because I am not busy running a billion dollar company, I really appreciate this time to…

  • Art Is The Foundation of My Sanity

    Years ago a former friend that I have 0 interest in having in my life again, told me that I wasn’t an artist. I don’t know if he was trying to be mean, but I do know that it hit a note inside of me that never quite sat well. For years I have been…

  • I’m Only The Villain In Your Story, Because I Survived You

    TRIGGER WARNING: Please practice self care before, during, and after reading this post. This post is a direct message to the men who abused me, and others, from here at home, and around the world. In discussing how I feel about their behavior, and their attitude towards their choices of what they did to me,…

  • It Took Me 15 Years To Become The Loud Mouth Brown Girl And I Am…Shocked

    TRIGGER WARNING: Please practice self care while reading this post as it does discuss difficult topics, without going into detail, but still. ~ Devon If 15 years ago you would have told me that I was going to make Blogging a full time gig, I probably would have agreed with you. But I wouldn’t have…

  • The Anger Isn’t My Weakness, It’s My Greatest Strength ***TRIGGER WARNING***

    !!!!!STOP!!!! Before You Read This Post Please Practice Self Care, This Post Details Experiences with Mental Health, Trauma, Rape, Torture, And Sexual Abuse I’ve been yelling a lot lately. Not at anyone in particular but out loud when the house is empty. I’ve also been crying a lot lately, for a lot of reasons, but…

  • Survivors Connection 2021 Is 13 Days Away

    I am SO excited. This is the first time in my life that I am hosting something like this, and it’s a bit like cracking open a chocolate egg filled with toys or candy, and not knowing which you’re going to get. I am fucking terrified, and yeah, emphasis on T.E.R.R.I.F.I.E.D because I am essentially…

  • Please Value My Time And My Space

    WARNING: THIS POST DETAILS SEXUAL ABUSE, TRAUMA, AND MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES, PLEASE PRACTICE SELF CARE BEFORE, DURING, AND AFTER READING. So recently I got a letter telling me how great I am, and how everything that I said resonated with the letter writer. I was really happy to receive this letter, because I love hearing…

  • Do You Know What You Truly Value?

    When your life is in a constant flux between safety and danger, the world can seem like a really overwhelming place. Through this program I am taking, I am learning to push the clutter to one side, and pull out only the pieces that I need. In truth I started this mental cleansing process weeks…

  • Do The Stories You Used To Tell About Yourself Still Serve You In This Moment?

    So for those of you who do not know I am taking this really cool program that was created by SISSIP Network, which is an organization that typically works with people who are considered “Seniors” in our community. This cohort that they are doing however is being inclusive of younger people who want to learn…

  • The Legacy of 90’s American “Gang” Music Culture Is Legendary…And It’s Not Going Anywhere

    When I was 13 – on my thirteenth birthday actually, I had a dream that 2Pac came to visit me with Biggie. I didn’t even listen to their music, but EVERYBODY knew about the beef between Biggie and Pac. Biggie was starting to get big, just like Pac was, and Biggie had friends that Pac…