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“I Have Fallen And I Can’t Get Up…” My Official “On Vacation,” Post
If you’re lucky, these words illicit an immediate response that gets you the help you need. When you have mental health issues, that is never the case. Largely because we don’t even know how to define mental health issues yet. What does that mean? Well for some people it means that their brains don’t work…
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So I Settled on Love Sparks
Click the image above, to visit my brand new Substack page. I genuinely owe the inspiration to another writer named Kern Carter, a phenomenal writer and teacher from Toronto Canada. I decided because I couldn’t write, to put myself on vacation. If I call it a vacation it’s not a writer’s slump. Then Kern wrote…
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What The Fuck Else Are You Going To Do But Survive This?
When I reached out to my friend and sista writer Nada Chehade, this is the question she asked me. “What the fuck else are you going to do but survive this?” she sent over WhatsApp, and I thought to myself…” What the fuck AM I going to do but survive this?” I was living in…
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Who Is In Your Medical Mental Health Community?
Who do you have that you can talk to, that give you good advice and show you the ropes when you are struggling on days when the world feels like shit? Because MY doctor and psych nurse team are about to change, and I am very worried. I have concerns, I have questions, but I…
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What Is Imposter Syndrome And How Do We Fight It?
Yesterday, (Saturday), I was at Pride handing out handwritten love letters, as I do every Pride season when I came across someone who confessed to dealing with imposter syndrome, and what I wanted to say was “fuck the syndrome, fight your way to fame and fortune baby, you’ve earned the right to try.” But instead…
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Now I Know What To Expect…And It’s Not Rainbow Shitting Unicorns
I am depressed. I shouldn’t be, I have a beautiful, brand-new apartment, life isn’t that bad. Even being houseless wasn’t terrible. Like it wasn’t the worst experience of my life, it was just another shitty thing, in a long list of shitty things. The worst that houseless got, was going to the shelter with my…
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I Have Great News
You may have heard it on Twitter, Facebook, or the Instagram, but we’re no longer houseless. We found an apartment and we’ll be moving in on Saturday morning. I’m cautiously excited. I don’t want to say where I’ll be living because after my stalker found my last apartment I’d like to deliberately keep my safety…
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Self-Publishing Isn’t “Real” Publishing…You Say
I worked my ass off writing Uncomfortable. It was like my version of trying to show you what Betoven did when writing the 9th Symphony, was my work as good as his? Sure, why the fuck not? Why couldn’t my writing be as equal or better than his? Because he’s dead and I’m still here…
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Introducing Ava Maria
It’s spring and the Faeries, the Mermaids, and the Witchy Fantasy Folks are gathering to celebrate another year of survival. I’ve come to see Pride celebrations as just that. Prayers to the Gods that we, those of us who believe in freedom, in truth, in justice, and in the power of the human spirit, get…
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Videtur Majick Verba Describere Vitae Meae
Or, Appear Majcik Words To Describe My Life. I’m fucking houseless. It used to be my job to help people find housing, or recovery options, or some safe place to be, and now I am in the position of needing someone to advocate for me and it sucks. BUT! I have that ever lasting drop…
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Every Human’s Worst Nightmare Is My Reality: It’s Me…I’m Houseless
How many times have you thought about your problems and secretly thought “At least I’m not them,” when you see someone living on the streets or in a tent? I am guilty of this. No matter what I was going through I was always housed. I was always certain that things were going to turn…
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 