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Trauma and PTSD Have Been The Focus For A Long Time
People tell me how strong I am. I rattle off the things I’ve been through like I’m making a grocery list. “I’ve been through x, y, z,” I say, often without realizing or thinking, that the words I am using, hit folks like a punch to the face. I’m really difficult to rattle because of…
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“Little By Little…
The world will strip you apart, just to prove that you’re as powerful as you are.” Someone once said that to me, years after he raped me, years after he’d already violated me. I’d given him a second chance, I didn’t really remember what he’d done to me, because he was out of my life…
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Stop Being So Afraid of Your Destiny That You Miss The Experience of Defining Your Destiny For Yourself
I said what I said and I am saying this with my whole chest. In my 20s I was told I was born to be a healer. I didn’t want to hear this, mainly because I was tired. I was burned out, years of helping others instead of helping myself, decades of masking, pretending, being…
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LMBG State of the Blog
It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these, and I’ve been struggling to write about anything lately, so I thought I would talk about some of the goals I want to accomplish in 2024. Now that I am housed and safe, and in a place of healing, I want more of it. At…
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Mental Health, Healing, And What Is Happiness?
My life is pretty perfect right now. I have everything a person could want, and that’s leading me to think that something bad might suddenly befall me because that’s how it always is, isn’t it? Just when you’ve found the place called happiness, something comes along to test your resolve and whatever it is, usually…
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Bitch And The Languages We Use
I used to call my friends bitch all the time. And then one day a boy called me a bitch and it didn’t feel so good coming from him. So let’s break it down. Bitch is a word used by women to connect each other to their inner power. When we call each other bitch…
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Am I Allowed to Have This?
Yes. You are allowed to have happiness after trauma, you are allowed to have all the good things after chaos, and even though you’ve been conditioned that this fact is a lie, it’s really not. Gaslighters have taught you that you deserve your position in this world, that you can’t work or fight for more…
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Search The Fucking Landfills Now
Dear Ghouls, Demons, And Otherworldly creatures known to this world as “man” who think that you can tell us what to wear and get away with it…Fuck You. I am so tired of everything about women being under attack. For a short period of time, I thought it was just me. I thought I was…
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What I Did on my Summer Vacation
So as you all know, recently I was houseless. Yup. I wasn’t living on the street, but. Iand my wheelchair-bound mother was very close. It took us a long while to find a place and during that time I was accepting and asking for, donations to help us get through. Here are some photos I…
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Why Do Adults Love Roller Coasters? Controlled Chaos
Everyone who loves roller coasters loves controlled chaos. They may not know it, but that’s the truth. We love knowing that we’re mostly safe, but it still feels scary. I grew up in a chaotic environment. When my mom was around things were peaceful and I was safe, but when she was gone, the shadow…
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What Does Mental Health Look Like For Women of Color In BC?
I’m not going to lie, it’s fucking ugly. All of the major panic attacks I’ve already written about, happened after I realized something incredibly traumatic, something so traumatic that it scared me to my soul. You already know the story. Gang rape. Cult Rape. Keith Rainier. Instead of believing me, people – read cops and…
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Revolutionary Acts of Healing
Fundamentalist Christianity, Cultism, and Gangs are all three major things that hate this world, that I have survived. Whether you believe me or not is fucking irrelevant, I am going to continue writing as if you do, because God damn it, I survived that shit. Repeatedly, for decades, without help. I was weird and crazy…
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