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Stand Up For Yourself, Because No One Else Will
My circle knows my story. They know that when I was a kid my mom’s best friend married a serial rapist and cult leader, who then went on to hurt thousands of women across several continents. He has been in prison for 125 years. I did not make this up, the law is on my…
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What To Do When Your Doctor Doesn’t Believe You…
I realize now, because I am (let’s be honest) not overly original, that lots of patients have doctors who don’t believe them. From talking to some of my friends I’ve learned many of the people I know and love are dealing with symptoms that are going ignored but these doctors, because they aren’t trained to…
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Mental Health & Rehabilitation
So my mom has a concussion. She was hit in the head several months ago by a woman who came into her workplace and started harassing folks. Mom turned her back and the woman smacked her in the head. The most interesting thing about this situation is that it’s helped me to understand my mom…
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I Have Hearing Problems!!!!
This is amazing, because of the head trauma that I experienced from being hit as a child, by one of my abusers, causing hearing problems, has been driving me crazy my whole life, and I genuinely thought I was crazy. Turns out, I have hearing loss. For years I’ve been reading lips instead of looking…
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The Church Will Never Accept You…But I will
This is a “Dear John,” letter to all those who are feeling unloved right now, by their spiritual community. For many years after I turned 11 and was molested in the church, I felt like God personally, was attacking me. I couldn’t differentiate between Good and Evil or God and Satan because everyone around me…
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I Don’t Have A Plan, But I Do Have A Goal
I walked 4-5 kilometers by myself today. I’m pretty impressed. Sure, I used to walk through Vancouver, Surrey, North Delta, and New West, all by myself lots, but that was the before times. Before I remembered everything and sat down to start writing it all out. I’ve come a long way, but I resent that…
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Afraid All The Time
That’s me. It’s my new center. I am continuously, constantly, and consistently, afraid. All the fucking time. I have the house to myself today, for the first time since mom got hit. Mom doesn’t go out anymore because she’s in pain, the light hurts her eyes, the wheelchair isn’t comfortable, and since getting hit in…
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In All Things You Do, Remember Your Why
Okay, so this is weird. I actually do remember my why. I wanted to live. I wanted to outlive the rapists, pedophiles, and cult leaders, who said that my life was unworthy of being lived because, and only because, of the color of my skin. For years I equated my skin color with abuse, because…
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Who Are You?
Outside your: Who the fuck are you? I don’t have these problems, children, partners, men, or dogs, it feels like I have no problems right now in comparison to my friends who are struggling in their own ways to balance all the things. I am not on a tight wire, I do not have to…
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Life, Without Men
I have a bed, brand new, that has never been touched by men. It’s never been laid on, fucked on, or farted in, by men. Just me. I have a room that has only had 3 men in it, and that’s the men who moved my stuff in it. A house only 1 man comes…
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 