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2025 Marks Eight Fucking Years
Okay, y’all, this past year was rough as …well it wasn’t quite as rough as getting raped, but it was bad. More than a few people I love very much passed away for a variety of reasons, and left me here to figure out what to do without them around to guide me. I broke…
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Is it ADHD…Or Is It Trauma?
I had a doctor ask me this and now I am starting to wonder. Trauma and ADHD look a lot a like. They are both mental health issues in me, that look identical. I am distracted a lot of the time, I disassociate, I start a project and then abandon it to start another. A…
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Help Not Cuffs: How Did I Become “The” Loud Mouth Brown Bitch?
To be fair, an entire book series, with an accompanying film series, could be written, directed, and played out, about my life. I was on a trip for CJSF radio, in 2017, when I had a panic attack on an airplane on the way back. To understand why I was so stressed out, you need…
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I Broke My Ankle…
On the day after Halloween, I was taking down the decorations in the event room in my building, and I fell off the chair I had climbed on, and both dislocated and broke my ankle. So yes, I have a brand new, and probably annoying to you, reality when it comes to disability. I have…
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Well, That Happened…
When I was 11 years old, I was visiting my mom’s back then, best friend, Susan in Hinton Alberta. One day my right leg started to hurt, to the point that I started to scream so loud they took me to the hospital. I learned I had tendinitis in my ankles, and that at some…
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I Owe You Everything
Six or seven years ago I came forward with a horrific story of abuse, trauma, PTSD, anxiety, and depression. I laid out my story for you, the RCMP, the Police, and anyone who would listen. In return there was a handful of men who said: Some of these men are gangsters, some of them cult…
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“Walking Red Flag…” In Otherwords…Check Your Patterns, They Might Be Destroying You
I laughed in ways I haven’t laughed in years. We were talking about Manny Montana, from the show “Good Girls,” and my friend expressed that she couldn’t figure out why everyone thought he was so hot. I laughed and said, “He’s not hot he’s pretty and there’s a difference.” That’s when she busted out the…
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I’m Making Room for Evolution
I don’t know what I will look like in six months, but for the first time in my life, I am genuinely curious about the results, of the work I am putting in. You may or may not know this, but last Wednesday marks the first day of the new section, of my health journey.…
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Everyone is So Encouraging…It’s Freaking Me Out
In my whole life, I haven’t had as much encouragement, as I’ve had since I decided, to start going to the gym. Now, I say I decided to start going to the gym, instead of “I decided to lose weight,” because weight loss isn’t a goal I want to reach for. I know I am…
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I Remember
I remember all the times I walked the earth alone because the people around me wanted nothing to do with me. I remember every single time I was raped – and every single time an adult called it sex. I remember every single time the cops showed up, and I got blamed. I remember every…
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ADHD Now Vs ADHD Then
Childhood ADHD is very different than adulthood ADHD. While I don’t know the science behind why it’s different, I saw a story today about a reporter doing a story on ADHD only to find out that she too, has the diagnosis. So I thought I’d talk about my experience so that you might get the…
Loud Mouth Brown Girl 