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Who The Fuck Gave You The God Damned Audacity?
Let me make this perfectly clear, no one “Gave me” the audacity to decide I deserve to be happy. I decided to take it because I am tired of wishing I had more, or was more. I am who I am, and as I develop I am finding parts of myself that I forgot existed.…
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You’re Doing Everything You Can…Right?
The more that I talk about what’s happened to me, outside of the digital world, the more that I am feeling…triggered, by my own thoughts and actions. I’m still not drinking, which I am very proud of, but I am starting to recognize, that the reason I am not drinking, is because drinking brought out…
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Well That Was Fun
Last night I went on TikTok live with my friend and neighbor That Bad Axe, and when it was over and I came upstairs again, I couldn’t go to sleep right away. I kept dreaming of being raped, I kept dreaming of my abusers, and it sent me into a tailspin that made me remember…
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“No One Wants You Here…”
This is the lie that bullies, and abusers, tell people so that they can justify their actions. I’ve decided that I no longer believe the lie that people don’t want me here. Namely because many of you have told me that I am a part of YOUR healing journey now. That means the world to…
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How Do You Pack Up Your Bullshit And Carry On?
Like, while being sober? Who the fuck are you superheros who manage to pay bills, take care of kids and partners, and take care of yourselves, like are you okay? So many of you are working your way through life without stopping to deal with the trauma that’s holding you back and I am telling…
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8 Years In, I Think This Deserves A Larger Celebration Than I Presented Originally
For decades I was the person whose voice genuinely did not matter to the men who caused me harm. For decades I was taught being a witch was evil, and then I learned that “Witch” is just another word for “Woman,” a word that men made up to define a creature they can’t understand but…
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Do I Move Forward, Or Stare At The Past, Until It Stares Back?
I am officially tired of writing about my past. For eight years I have used my past to tell my story and set me free from decades of abuse. Thank you for listening. Now I would like to talk about the present, I would like to use this platform to talk about what’s happening in…
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If You Can, Refuse To Carry Shame
One of the first things I felt when I realized what had been done to me, was disgust. The second was shame, and the third was guilt. For decades I would scar my body by any means necessary, usually by “accident,” but the purpose was to remind myself of what was being done to me…
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Let’s Face it, Healing this shit, Ain’t Easy
No I’m not fucking ready to get into a relationship thank you Sir. No I am not prepared for the falls and highs of being with someone that I can’t trust. It takes at least a full year to learn someone’s habits and likes and dislikes, to really learn who a person is, you have…
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Disability, Mental Health, It’s All So Difficult
Between chronic pain, chronic mental health disabilities, and the physical disability of having a broken ankle, has shown me just how difficult disability is. Across the spectrum, people who live with disabilities, struggle with mental health issues, largely because so many of us are alone. So many people who live with disabilities, live in poverty…
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It’s 2025, Update Your Bookmarks Friends…
I don’t know what to say my friends. I updated the website because it’s 2025, and I honestly thought “Maybe this will inspire me to write something beautiful.” But the truth is that with everything going on in the world, I am completely overwhelmed. I have so many things that I want to do, but…
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