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How Do You Pack Up Your Bullshit And Carry On?
Like, while being sober? Who the fuck are you superheros who manage to pay bills, take care of kids and partners, and take care of yourselves, like are you okay? So many of you are working your way through life without stopping to deal with the trauma that’s holding you back and I am telling…
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8 Years In, I Think This Deserves A Larger Celebration Than I Presented Originally
For decades I was the person whose voice genuinely did not matter to the men who caused me harm. For decades I was taught being a witch was evil, and then I learned that “Witch” is just another word for “Woman,” a word that men made up to define a creature they can’t understand but…
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Do I Move Forward, Or Stare At The Past, Until It Stares Back?
I am officially tired of writing about my past. For eight years I have used my past to tell my story and set me free from decades of abuse. Thank you for listening. Now I would like to talk about the present, I would like to use this platform to talk about what’s happening in…
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If You Can, Refuse To Carry Shame
One of the first things I felt when I realized what had been done to me, was disgust. The second was shame, and the third was guilt. For decades I would scar my body by any means necessary, usually by “accident,” but the purpose was to remind myself of what was being done to me…
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Let’s Face it, Healing this shit, Ain’t Easy
No I’m not fucking ready to get into a relationship thank you Sir. No I am not prepared for the falls and highs of being with someone that I can’t trust. It takes at least a full year to learn someone’s habits and likes and dislikes, to really learn who a person is, you have…
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Disability, Mental Health, It’s All So Difficult
Between chronic pain, chronic mental health disabilities, and the physical disability of having a broken ankle, has shown me just how difficult disability is. Across the spectrum, people who live with disabilities, struggle with mental health issues, largely because so many of us are alone. So many people who live with disabilities, live in poverty…
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It’s 2025, Update Your Bookmarks Friends…
I don’t know what to say my friends. I updated the website because it’s 2025, and I honestly thought “Maybe this will inspire me to write something beautiful.” But the truth is that with everything going on in the world, I am completely overwhelmed. I have so many things that I want to do, but…
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2025 Marks Eight Fucking Years
Okay, y’all, this past year was rough as …well it wasn’t quite as rough as getting raped, but it was bad. More than a few people I love very much passed away for a variety of reasons, and left me here to figure out what to do without them around to guide me. I broke…
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Is it ADHD…Or Is It Trauma?
I had a doctor ask me this and now I am starting to wonder. Trauma and ADHD look a lot a like. They are both mental health issues in me, that look identical. I am distracted a lot of the time, I disassociate, I start a project and then abandon it to start another. A…
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Help Not Cuffs: How Did I Become “The” Loud Mouth Brown Bitch?
To be fair, an entire book series, with an accompanying film series, could be written, directed, and played out, about my life. I was on a trip for CJSF radio, in 2017, when I had a panic attack on an airplane on the way back. To understand why I was so stressed out, you need…
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I Broke My Ankle…
On the day after Halloween, I was taking down the decorations in the event room in my building, and I fell off the chair I had climbed on, and both dislocated and broke my ankle. So yes, I have a brand new, and probably annoying to you, reality when it comes to disability. I have…
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