Little Bits

I've been thinking a lot about how I am not doing "a lot" of active healing. By active healing I mean I don't have a job, I am not working towards getting one and my house is still in a state of semi chaos. I am not doing the things that I think I should … Continue reading Little Bits

It’s time to focus that energy

I am trying to learn how to focus my energy, but I am having trouble expressing this phase of my healing. When I wake up the first thing I focus on is getting coffee into my system as quickly as possible. It's so automatic now I don't even think about it. Before I go to … Continue reading It’s time to focus that energy

I shared something today and it didn’t kill me.

Today I tweeted out that I had been gang raped on three or four separate occasions by the same men. It started when I was fifteen, at that time they were just boys, like me, children. The last time they raped me they were full grown adults, who made it very clear that what I … Continue reading I shared something today and it didn’t kill me.

I’m not letting this shit go.

I was gang raped in the year of 2016. You know this if you've been reading this blog as long as I've been writing it. It wasn't the first time I was gang raped, but it was most certainly the last. Every night I go to bed terrified someone is going to kick my door … Continue reading I’m not letting this shit go.

“Joker” just taught me a huge lesson about white male poverty.

It's because it's about a White man, specifically, living in poverty and you see yourself, and you understand and it scares the fuck out of you. Because any day now, you are terrified you might be pushed to the point where you lose control and kill your own mother. Maybe it's not even that deep, … Continue reading “Joker” just taught me a huge lesson about white male poverty.